True self lost in the shadow of the mother, false self becomes part of the child all the way to the child’s adulthood. Where is that child? Where is mother? Maybe she is not real. Maybe she is only a concept. Can I ever have her? Even for some short moments. Even for just parts of it. I cannot stop searching for her. I cannot stop yearning for her. But I am her now, a daughter and a mother. No matter how hard I try, there is a distance and mystery of it. Am I courageous or fearful?  It still looks beautiful somehow, of what it is now. Maybe there is a beauty in loss and accepting could be a remedy for longing.

The creation of my work, partly inspired by psychoanalyst Donald Winnicott, gives me an emotional and psychological insight into my relationship with my mom and my identity; true self and false self. It deals with loss and longing. It is a personal journey of repairing yet it is universal because we were all once a child and we all have a mother. I hope this work can connect and evoke the viewer to feel something or anything on an emotional level. The emotions of loss, longing, pain, frustration, fragility, illusion, repairing, courage, fear, acceptance, the special unwavering tie a child has with the mother and the special power of a mother on her child…

Mama, 2021  

mixed media  

1100 x 800 x 2000 mm

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